Train of thoughts

Now I am lost in a trail of thoughts. I am having handful of work. So the theory of “idle mind is a devil’s workshop” does not hold good; for the first time. It may sound absurd, but, I am telling you... I am lost in thoughts... I am in a complete black out state… I don’t know what to think and what not to think. In fact, I am scared to think… Can such a mental dilemma occur to all? Or am I just confused?

Human thoughts and psychology is the most intricate and complex of all. I am unable to understand myself. Then, how can I understand others? I am unable to think clearly. Then, how can I lead others towards clarity? I feel like I am shut in a dark dungeon. Then, how can I lead others towards sunshine?

Some random songs are being played in the background. And, here I sit staring at infinity. I feel as if all those words were written for me… As if written for me…. Am I that disturbed? I am unable to think. I am going through a mental block…

I am missing many people who have left a mark in my life… At the same time… I am also wondering how many more people are going to influence me and my life…

I am thinking how radically life is changing… I am thinking though I don’t feel like thinking at all…

Life can be such a puzzle, you see. It is so uncertain… It is full of unexpected… It is filled with surprises… Is this because life has an element of vagueness… Or is it only because of difference in perspectives? Or am I not understanding? Will I be able to understand at all - The nuances of life… Such an enigma…

Sometimes isolation is the only accelerating agent that can suck out the real you… Solitude is bliss… It helps us to assess ourselves… Understand others… Understand why we fail to understand others… It helps us know what life is… What life is giving us… and what we really want out of it! It showcases the moments of pleasure and grief in a phantasmagoric manner. Fantastic life, isn’t it?

Thought rail… Complex… Intriguing…

I am trying to decipher the code called life… But I am failing… I want to know the future… I am failing again… Should I try again? Should I continue the quest? Should I feed myself with what is most apparent or should I ponder further?

Life… Complex… Intriguing…

Such a fun… Such confusion… Such a mystery!!!