It was only you I had...

Yes..

It was only you I had…

When I cried… When I laughed… You were there with me… Wiping my tears and laughing aloud with me… Sometimes you used to get irritated. You would say that I cry needlessly….

It was only you I had…

Your presence made me forget the loneliness that always clutched my hands…. In your presence, I was myself… Forgetting the past and careless about the future… I was happy and I was glowing… And I had/have no regrets….

It was only you I had…

And your silence pricks me… Tears wells in my eyes and thoughts never transform into words… And I am taking no effort either… Because I don’t feel like talking!

What has happened to me? I remember my dear one’s birthday, yet I feel too depressed to make a call. I am hungry, yet I feel so devastated to feed myself and feel happy.

Is that your absence, I don’t know. Is that your silence, I think so!

I know you will come back to. I also know that you will know how I am feeling. But I need you now… Sleep is dominated by nightmares and world around seems to be blurred.

Tomorrow we may laugh at this phase and this entire thought process may look like a joke. But what to do? I am more worried about this moment… And I am missing you perennially at this moment…

May be because I didn’t say a proper goodbye…

May be…

I don’t know!

After all,

It was only you I had…

Please come back…