Let me Fly!

Every night, I lie down and miss Locomente. I miss those crazy days when I used to write something-anything every day. Those were the days when I was able to dream, think and express them through words. I wonder why I don’t write anything anymore. Is it writer’s block – a convenient excuse? Or laziness – a bitter truth? Or of course, my indifference – the stark reality?

So, for a change, tonight, I decided to let the thoughts flow through my words. I didn’t switch off the lights to drift into vacuum. Instead, I turned on my laptop and forced to write. That’s the beauty about habits. A gentle nudge – tada! You are back on the track!

Isn’t is funny how something so dear to you gets estranged over a period of time? Is that the essence of evolution? Or is it the mere question of what next! We humans have a tendency to eternally search for something we don’t have. Often, we are unhappy with what we have; something we have lovingly built over time. The quest is never ending and generally frustrating.

For many days, words were my identity. Eventually, I let the camera lens weave magic. Off late, I wanted to create something in canvas. Thus, life moves on. New things will come and old passion remains as sweet memories. But, is letting go so easy? Is moving on as simple as it sounds? Is change the only underlying certainty?

I have only questions and more questions. Most of them answered with another question. The endless loop coils and suffocates me. “Don’t think so much”, says an inner voice. But hey! Who has ever cared about that voice? As usual, it goes unheard.

Tonight, I decided that I will start again. With new vigor and passion. After all, every new day is a new promise. It is a new opportunity to rewrite the sentence called our life and choices differently. Chuck the past. Forget the apprehensions about future. Because as we know, this moment is all we have. To end in a filmy style, “Kal Ho Na Ho”. Who knows if there is a tomorrow? So, let me not procrastinate anymore. Let me not feed slow poison to my dreams and murder it in the name of routine life. Let me not cripple myself by injuring my wings. Let me fly high!!!!

PS: This is my 1500th post... Way to go before I sleep!